BOO.

I've always been particular about physical appeal. We are all superficial bastards no matter how we want to hide it.

I've never been happy with the way I looked.
(Disclaimer: Its not about being insecure, but knowing the truth. LOL)

I hated photo taking sessions.

And I am proud to say that I've scared away a couple of online blind dates.
(Just to add to that, a couple of online dates scares the hell out of me too.)

But eventually I found confidence within myself, and met some beautiful people(not just their physical appeal of course) who admired how I was.

When I was younger, I made an effort to meet up with people. I was determined to be comfortable around strangers. It's a werid practice for a kid at that age.

Some people may find that eccentric behavior undesirable.

But looking back, I was proud of myself doing so.

The world never changed, but I did.

Technology.

We depend on the net on almost anything.

If there's something you don't know, you google it.

If you want to learn a new skill, go to youtube.

If you want buy something, you check up e bay.

I checked up the net on "how to be happy".

I even look up the net on dealing with people.

Isn't that quite an irony. You look up the Internet for information on human interactions?

But guess what, soon enough, online dating is about to be the new age to relationships.

People these days are already looking for Love online. It's only going to take a while more before it becomes a norm.

What have we become?

Maybe its just me. I've met happy people in my life. I know I am not one of them. If you give it a thought, you can probably tell who are the happier people in your lives too.

Some of these happy people happen to be quite dependent on the net too. Why then do I feel as though I shouldn't keep up?

Perhaps it applies to different people. I've heard alot of talk about how being online excessively can lead to psychological problems like depression, isolation and so on. Yet, I've also heard a lot about how you'd lose out if you don't keep yourself updated.

I think we all start to forget about one thing. About exceptions. About how each individual can be different.

I'm probably going to be quite affected when i dwell on the net too much. Maybe its different for you. Perhaps you'd find a key to keep yourself controlled.

There really isn't a point for this post.

Its just a reminder to myself.

A new Begining.

I think I've been living in my dreams for a while, putting on a mask in an attempt to be different yet the same.

We all try to be different. And many seem to be in a race to impress, to win, to succeed. Some days we slow down, look back, and realise how much we left behind.

It didn't take me 10 years to realise that I am not living my life. When i was 10, I probably thought about what it meant to be alive. (Yes, when i was 10.)

I didn't find my answer 10 years later.

Have you?

Values

I hate how my parent's lose their good values in times of "crisis" in front of their kids.

I can't say that ill be any better.

But I am not looking forward to have any kids of my own.

Losing Yourself

It feels as though I haven't been blogging for ages. Yet at the same time, I AM blogging very frequently. So why the hell do I feel that way?

I've been taking on a new class under "New Communications Technology(NCT)". Of which Im encouraged to write entries about what I've learnt. I personally thought it's a pretty good idea because writing down what you learnt is probably the one thing that actually does help your learning experience, and it is also the one thing that not many students are doing.

Having said that, I am quite upset about the structure of NCT classes. It's a personal thing. I've never liked how technology is integrating into our daily lives and I picked a thesis on online relationships particularly to prove how the Internet is affecting us psychologically and not for the better.

While me and my sister desperately push ourselves to take daily walks and hide away our computers, I am required to learn more about technology and its dark side.

The purpose of this entry was to wake myself up and for once blog about what I want than entries on NCT. But right now, I guess I still had to link it back to my frustration.

Okay. Time to move on, Wei Liang.

Music makes the world go round

I've never been keeping up with the lastest MTV, Music trends and hits.

Having said that, I always felt that its an essential part of life. Be it at the office, in the trains, and even in religions.

I was listening to the music on my blog a second ago. And I just had this urge to blog. I don't know about what, but it just made me want to write.

Live these days have been thoughtful. I've been trying to keep in mind several things. These may be pretty cliche, but nevertheless pretty true.

1) Never give up. All you've to do and think about is to put one foot in front of the other.
- Shawn Lee

2) Its an age where working hard doesn't pay off. You've to work smart
- Mr Dioni Yong

3) Just do it, for the experience. You've nothing to lose
- Choon boon
(He claims that I used to say that all the time)

These probably aren't the smartest thing you heard, nor is it going to be so inspiring to change your life. But hopefully it does intrigue you to a certain extend. And hopefully
some other day, someone else would remind you of these and have you keep them in mind.

- LIFE IS GOOD (LG)

Today i read up about:

Narcissism

A friend of mine is having trouble with a colleague at work. Apparently his work mate, Daniel have the habit to put people down. Although it can be irritating, he has to admit that Daniel is quite witty at times.

...people with narcissistic personality disorder are often highly intelligent and charming...
Basically Daniel tries to put my friend down, unreasonably. It may be obvious to intelligent people that we should ignore people like that. But then again, it can be extremely irritating at times.

In the end I think I actually gave the wrong advice, and taught my friend how to be an asshole too.

To everyone with an issue out there, Stay calm.

The Minority Report

Some movies tend to be more intriguing than others.

There were a couple of amazing inventions in the "Minority Report". Like how cars traveled on walls, how holograms instead of print ads were everywhere, and that everything else was voice activated.

Its always interesting how technology can work like magic. If magic is like dream that never happened, then technology is the reality.

I've been performing magic for a while, and whenever I see a trick that looks so impossible, I start to question myself if I should actually dismiss it as another trick with a disappointing secret.

When I was watching the Minority Report, I start to wonder. What about magician at that time. What about the magicians in 2054.

When technology is reality, what else is there for magic?

The movies talks about pre crime. To predict the future, and thus preventing crimes before it actually happens. Although everyone else believed that it was a perfect system, there was an error. Human error.

Perfection is a flaw. If something is perfect, there will never be anything else to look forward to.

With all the talk on confidence, positive thinking and first impressions, perhaps we should also remind ourselves of something else.

That being humble (or realistic) with ourselves is a more attractive quality than "trying too hard".

Here's a couple of things I'd keep in mind. Perhaps you too.

1) You're not half as good looking as you'd assume.
2) You're probably lacking the same social skills you'd think you have.
3) You're no smarter than anyone else.
4) And finally, you aren't that different no matter how hard you try, because everyone else think they're different. In the end, we're all similar in that sense.

The slient rule.

Its interesting when I listen to others about their relationships.

I've a friend who wrote something like this in her shoutout on facebook:

"If we are going to break up in the end, whats the point of getting together"

If you're analytical, you'd probably be able to tell what kind of girl she might be.

I believe my other friend left a reply, telling her how its the process, but not the product that matters. That it is the memories together that's worth the effort.

A few days back, I heard about another relationship. That one, was perfect. Or at least, it sounded as good.

I've always felt that the secret to success applies to anything else. (Relationship included).
With determination, patience and understanding. That couple was a perfect example.

They've been together for more than year.

They're both extraordinary attractive people in their own ways,

and finally,

they have a healthy sex life.

Is that what contributes to a healthy relationship? No.

Its the communication. Its the effort they put in. Its the compromises they make. Its all the cliche stuff that helps maintain this relationship as a whole.

That's how I see it. I don't know the two well enough say much. As an outsider, that's what I feel.

And finally, a while ago, I was chatting with a wondering girl about her relationship with her partner. It has always been my habit to ask about relationships, just so I'd understand better.

She's a total sunshine girl. The kind who smiles at anything and everything. I don't know too much about her boyfriend, but apparently he sounds pretty nice from how she put it. Then again, I probably don't know her well enough for her to share any problems.

It interests me how her relationship works. And hopefully the next time I talk to her, I'd learn a thing r two.

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KILL YOU

I've had serious headaches whenever I worked out.

Rested for about a month.

And now its back.

The fucking construction downstairs isn't helping at all. And i feel like killing everyone.

Maybe

Yknw of the saying, how the grass on the other side is always greener?

Its like how you make a choice, and then reason with yourself that the one you didn't pick, would have been better.

But in reality, we are smarter than that.

We'd pick a rotten egg over an apple, and then reason with ourselves that the rotten egg is better.

That's called self deception.

Regrets

Its amazing how relationships work.

Its amazing how some people just like who you are and some just never would.

Its amazing how you chose me, and yet i let go.

You're different? Really?

We all think that we're different and unique in some ways. Deep down, we all think that we are better than another person. In one way or another. Maybe you think that you have better taste. Maybe you think that you're always right.

We are all comparing ourselves. And sometimes, we compare others too. And that's what the society has become. A bunch of kids, full of confidence about themselves, and yet so insecure at the same time.

Somewhere in our lives, we learnt that labeling others makes ourselves feel better.

And we seldom try to look back, and see, that the opposite is what gives us the peace of mind we seek.

Death

Its death taught me a few things.

1) Most girls tend to say the right things and make you feel better.
2) Adults are usually quite sensitive to things like that.
3) People overseas are much more empathetic.

Although that sounds pretty nice, the most important lesson I learnt isn't anywhere close.

4) I happen to have insensitive "friends" who'd see it as talking points. I see no reason how anyone should actually make fun of it, or actually spread such news.
5) There are always people who don't think before they question.

For people like that, time to wake up asshole.

Lesson learnt:
Never talk about death to people you aint too close with. Most probably they aint sensitive enough to be helpful.