Dear You

I've been trying to send you a letter.

But I'm struggling to write.

I'm not sure how to start.

I'm not sure if you remember.

I've so much to say.

Yet I don't know how to put it.

I'm not sure if you'd like to hear.

It was easier before.

It used to be nice.

I remember.

& I hope you do too.

I've been trying to send you a letter.

But it doesn't send through.

Even without the stamp on,
just like before,
I hope it still gets to you.
& I wish I hear from you.

Nostalgia

Do you remember the last time when you were eager to wake up. Keyword : "Eager".

For the past few weeks I couldn't wait to be up in the morning to start my day. To focus on my work, one task at a time. Not multitasking. I read and listened to success articles more than ever and was happy to be making little steps forward. You know that feeling at the end of the day when you get the sense of fulfillment completing what you set out for yourself? Brilliant.

& then suddenly one night, I had trouble sleeping. Over the years I pride myself to have very healthy sleeping habits. So it came as a surprise. It wasn't due to excitement or from adrenaline. It was fear. All of a sudden I was afraid. Worries came up. About how things would go. About how things could go. My troubles came from everywhere. 

My favorite time of the day is between 1.00am - 3:00am. It is the time I found the most peace. You don't get socially obligated calls or texts and everyone is asleep.

I stayed awake thinking. Trying to pacify myself with logic and faith.

These few thoughts helped. & if you ever feel the same way, I hope you remember these too.

1. "Success is a poor teacher" - Robert T. Kiyosaki

I don't know how true this is. But it certainly makes for a good excuse. Not an excuse to fail, but an excuse to take action despite potential failure.

2. " Money is something you should work hard for, but not allow it to become what your work is about. " - Anonymous Singapore

It's tiring to chase after financial wealth. And once in a while we ought to remind ourselves to keep doing what matters to us, not just what pays the bills.

3.  " Because almost everything — all external expectations, all pride, all fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. " - Steve Job

Every once in a while, we remind ourselves to be thankful and be contented with our lives. Cause you only live once. And then it's all gone. The good and the bad.

Hang in there everyone.We're all in this.

Revisited

" If you asked me now who I am, The only answer I can give with any certainty will be my name. For the rest, my loves, my hates, down even to my deepest desires, I can no longer say whether these emotions are of my own, or stolen from those I once so desperately wish to be."

& sometimes I wonder,

if there's any good left in me.

For a while now,

I've lost track of time.

Lost track of when it happened.

Or how long it has been.

I can't remember.

Not much.

Almost nothing at all.

I can't remember being me.

It's not negativity when you doubt voices that are your own.

It's being conscious.

It's being aware.

It's knowing.

Knowing that you're alive.

That you're searching.

Not for meaning or for purpose.

But searching for yourself.

For the best you can be.

And sometimes you find it.


Never on your own.

You find it in people.

Because it's always someone else,

who brings out the goodness in you.

Cage

People write to remember.

Because things can slip away so quickly.

Even memories would fade.

So we pen it down;

all our feelings,

all those moments.

All into words.

Just to keep them safe. 

Yet sometimes we write to forget.

To put it out there,

away from the heart.

To leave it behind.

To let it go. 

Some people write to remember. 

& some to forget.

What would make You write? 

Worth

I want to ask about you.

Not about how your day went.

But, about you.

About how you're feeling.

About what you need.

About who you are.

I want to show you the perfect place to fall in love.

To where time stand still,

where we could close our eyes,

and feel safe in under the night sky.

One day,

I'd like to ask you, about you.

Just to know.

Whether you'd ask me the same.

Sands

What is an hour to you?

Just enough time for an errand, maybe.

Just enough time to get somewhere.

Just enough to get changed for some people.

If you think about it,

an hour isn't very long.

Sixty minutes.

Thirty six hundred seconds.

That's it.

Yet sometimes,

an hour can mean everything.
An hour you'd remember forever. 
In medicine, there's the golden hour.

That magical window of time,

to determine whether you live or die.

An hour can save your life.

An hour can change it.

Sometimes an hour is just a gift we give ourselves.

For some,

an hour mean almost nothing.

For others,
with the right person,
an hour makes all the difference in the world.

In the end,

it is,

only an hour.

One of many.

Many more to come.

Sixty mintues.

Thirty six hundred seconds. 

That's it.

Then it starts all over again.

Pretty Young Thing

One of the hardest things we do is to prioritize.

To make decisions for ourselves.

To know,

what's truly important.

It's easy for us to choose.

It's just difficult to do it without hesitation.

We're all gamblers.
Sometimes I wish
& no matter what's your bet,
for you to know,
no matter what's at stake,
to realize that
no matter what's your game,
what we have,
sooner or later,
is a once in a life, love affair.
you are just gonna have to follow your heart.

and maybe,

just maybe,

it will take you right where you're meant to be.

Sparkle

Magicians practice deception all the time.

We make dreams a reality.

& if you asked,

we'd tell you that illusions are for real.

There's a romance about these things.

In a world that's strange,

where even love can change.

It's all anybody wants,

isn't it?

A bit of magic in our lives.

To believe in.

To fall in love.

To give your heart away.

 " What ever it is you want, a job, a kiss, a dream come true... you just have to close your eyes & hold your breathe. & you'll find the courage somewhere inside to take a leap. Cause some things are too precious to leave to the hands of time. Too important to wait and see. "

June

They say that

you should never go to bed angry.

Because the longer you wait to handle something,

the harder it gets.

& for a while I kept to that.

I would keep trying.

& for whatever it was,

I'd put away everything I had,

just to make it right.  
just so you could sleep at night.
Some people realise that it takes two.
 That even though it could be love,
That there's only so much you can do.

so much you can take.

So eventually people let go.

They tell themselves never to look back.

& pray for a better tomorrow.

A tomorrow that will never come.

Because it isn't sad that love takes trying.
when it's worth it.
It isn't sad that love takes two.
As long as it's with you,
It makes it easier.
It makes it true.
Because then you know.
what it really meant.
The ones who takes your feelings for granted.

& the ones who knew how much courage it took for you to show it.

- I love you.

Break

We all want to be happy.

To move forward.

To grab all the opportunities ahead.

To live.

& we forget that it's cold out there.

Because sometimes growing up means leaving people behind.

& by the time you stand on your own two feet,

you're all alone. 

Smoking Silver

Our lives are made up of choices.

Some that matter more than others.

Everyday we choose.

We choose how we spend our time.

We choose where to spend it on.

We choose who,

to spend it with.

& it's never actually that difficult. 

Because we do know what we want.

Between love or pride.

Between fight or flight. 

Yet we all struggle.

We struggle to make sense of it all.

I'll say it again to make sure you hear me.

Our lives are made up of choices.

Some that matter more than others. 

Everyday we choose.

& it's never actually that difficult.

Photographs

We take pictures when we're on top.

Smiling, ecstatic, and blissful.

As for the rest of it,

the relentless climb,

the pain and anguish,

nobody takes pictures of that.

It's not what you forget about.

But it's the view from the top,
the pictures of you,
that breath taking moment
we had together
at the edge of the world,
It's the smiles,
you want to remember.
For what's its worth,
That's what keeps us climbing.
For all the love,
It's worth the pain.
For all we had,
That's the crazy part.
Because with you,
It's worth everything.

Frame a Picture

I think it actually takes a lot to smile.

If its easy for you,

maybe you're not doing it right.

Maybe we're all behind a masquerade,

dancing at a ball,

trying to be ourselves.

Maybe we never got to know each other.

Even when we held hands,

& walked on sand.

Even if we spoke of love,

under the stars above. 

Because we never took it down.

All that glamor,

all that pretense.

I think it takes a lot to forget.

& when it doesn't,

it's probably not worth remembering

Ring

Some of us make plans.

Set goals.

& have directions.

Yet many of the best things in life,

happen by chance.

The love you met,

the happiest days you've had,

all just came together. 

No matter how many plans we make

or steps we follow

we never know how our days is gonna end up.

We prefer to know of course,

about what's coming our way.

But it's the accidents

that always turns out to be the most interesting part of our lives. 

So we go to sleep each night thinking about tomorrow.

going over our lists, preparing for the day,

and hoping that whatever comes our way

makes it a better day.

Note

It's easy to get lost in it all.

To lose track of time.

To miss out on the little things.

To forget about what's really important.
 
So once in a while,

someone comes along to remind you.

That it doesn't take a lot to remember.

That you can have live the moments,

and have it be forever.